Got bak mt a lv results a few hrs ago.. N I would hav to sae dat although I was initially apathetic abt it, I was unable to control miie joy wen I saw miie results.. =X Sry to all if I hav affected u in one way or the other thru miie actions.. =X

Mayb it isn't a grade really worth 2 b joyful abt for sum, bt it really meant alot to miie as dat was wat I was aimin 4 initially until I started to lower miie expectations.. =X N given only a pass for oral n the amt of effort put in, I m really really happy.. =X A far improvement from a 'D' to a 'B' tho miie oral deteriorated.. =X (Shud able to reveal ex results now dat it really is history.. Haha.. =X)

Maybe I shud really learn to control mie emotions better n not show em at the top of miie head.. =.= T T I noe I hav an eq of a retard.. :( Sry to all once again if I affected any of u.. It was really unintentional.. :(

N on a darker note, I m beginning to worry for a lvs upon seeing clique n the others getting their results.. Its seriously so unpredictable.. One's grade can really jump or dip lyk craziie altho they are usually consistent.. T T Which means 1001 possibilities for a lv results nxt yr.. Urgggh! Really starting to feel the tinge n stress again! =.= T T I hav alrdy been pre-warned 3 yrs bak when I got bak miie o lv results by mom.. She had warned miie dat it was gonna b hard wrk n it was gonna b competitive.. She even advised against going to a jc if I was not rdy to face the challenge.. I believed her, bt didn't take her words at face value as I tot she exaggerated a lil.. =.= T T

Decided I was rdy to face the stress n challenges dat come wif taking a lvs n so I opted for a jc.. N now I m so unsure of miself even after retention n the change of subject combination n all.. =.= T T Maybe mothers stil noe their child best aft all.. Maybe I m really not cut-out for a jc.. Maybe I should hav opted for a poly course.. =.= T T

Whatever crap.. I guess I m stuck wif this path now n hav to continue it by hook or by crook.. =.= T T Guess all I can do is hope for the best n continue to put in lots of hard wrk.. =.= T T

P.S. Ok not emo'ing here.. Jus penning miie tots down.. I m stil happiie for miie chinese results ya? N sry to whoever I may hav offended jus now.. :(