I m jus so tired (physically n mentally).. Hav this feelin dat I m getting sick soon from the stress piling in.. =.= T T

*Sighz* Life stil sucks ttm man! :(

Life's been really borin n repetitive these daes dat I couldn't bother much 2 update.. =.= T T Stress starts 2 pile in when effort is not directly proportional to results + repeated reality checks from various trs.. :( Urgggh! Had better face it.. J2 life= no life! =.= T T

Just finished miie bio tutorial which is a freakin 18 pgs on genetics.. Great! It is such dat the trs really do noe how to pile on so much wrk for us dat it jus makes us freakin lose interest even in our fav subjects or topics.. Jus lyk math the other dae.. *Rolls eyes* =.=

N I m not done wif wateva math qns dat our tutor only gave us one dae 2 do.. Shall do it in btw breaks tml as I m freakin tired now.. =.= T T

On a darker note, I really freakin hate ppl who r jus out to make use of u.. =.= T T Try n b nice n do jus one favor for em n they would keep lookin for u when they 'need' u until they push ur buttons.. Was damn bloody pissed wif it 2dae! I swear this is the last time I m gonna 'help' u guys.. Annoying shit! =.= T T

Won't b posting photos anytime soon I guess since I m god damn busy + no mood 2 do so.. =.= T T

Shall stop crapping here.. I noe this post is really boring to read but whatever~ =.=

I jus hope life stops pissing miie off! =.= T T

16th February 2010, Tues

Went 2 dora's hse supposedly yesterdae.. (Technically the dae b4 yesterdae since it is alrdy 12am now.. Haha..) The hospitality n the food was totally awesome! Thanks dora! :D Not 2 mention the food dat we ate actually lasted 4 the whole dae.. (U can imagine how much it was..) Lol!

N I kind of regretted not wanting 2 bet at 1st for the card game.. Well.. Initially I kept losing the 1st few games or so.. Den when I started to have my winning streak, the rest didn't want to bet alrdy.. =.= T T.. Only won lyk a small sum frm blackjack tho.. Haha..

N there was so much food left even at the end dat we decided to bet on food instead which explains the amount we ate.. Lol! Had better work out to burn the extra calories soon.. Haha..

P.S. No pictures uploaded since we were too busy playing, chatting n gossiping.. Haha.. :D

17 February 2010, Wed

I noe this will b a damn contradicting wat I posted above abt new yr, but I really badly want an outlet for myself to rant! URGGGGGH! :(

1st dae of sch aft cny n it alrdy sucks ttm.. Was greeted wif math test to be conducted at the las period of the dae n 3hrs of math the whole dae.. I lyk math, but even the most die-hard fan will get tired of this.. =.= Moreover, 1 out of the 3hrs 2dae was actually an extra lesson arranged in replacement of GP since our GP tutor wasn't in sch 2dae.. Seriously.. It is better 2 hav another separate dae for the lesson ya? T T Comin 2 sch seems very boring wif it.. Imagine jus going 4 the lesson of 2 different subjects.. PE n Math.. Borin ttm! :(

N fancy havin a test right aft a holiday where we r obliged 2 do visiting esp at the las period of the dae.. T T

Since it was the las period, I was alrdy half dead when I attempted the paper.. =.= T T.. N on top of dat, I suck at P&C + probability which was the main topic tested.. DE wasn't exactly 'do-able' either.. =.=

N all this means.. Saying hello to another set of 'beautiful red markings + numbers' on miie test paper.. As if I haben failed enuf tests for the mth.. =.= T T

Urgggh! Really fel lyk tearin miie head out in frustration.. T T N felt totally guilty 4 not doing anyting 4 miie mom's b-dae since I was too packed wif stuff dat I 4got abt it.. *Oops* :(

Shall make up another time n sorry yeah! :( (Though she won't eva read this anyway..)

Shall end off here now.. Had better turn in 2 hav sum sleep lest I get more cranky the nxt mornin.. :(

Havin steamboat 4 reunion dinner later, bt somehow this yr feels different.. Somehow I simply dun feel the joy n enthusiasm I usually have during new yr.. =.= Maybe I m jus getting older I guess.. Haha..

Anyway, it was rather busy yesterdae n so tiring dat I slept for 13hrs straight, only waking up at 2pm 2dae.. =X

Reported 2 sch den headed off 2 rgps 4 the performance.. N we only ended off at 2pm.. =.= T T Rgps is really a rich kid's sch btw.. Really regretted not taking any pictures of it.. =X Their hall is larger den ours n dey even hav a playground.. Lol! Even the piano at their music rm is totally grand n cool! It sounds nice n the keys feel nice to touch too! (Wat do u expect frm a piano made in switzerland?) Haha..

Rushed 2 mit huishan aft dat 2 do sum las min shoppin 4 cny at bugis.. I mean, most of miie clothes mostly hav a lil bit of black in em if not the whole patch.. =X Miie parenz r ok wif it but I guess u can't assume dat the family member's of others would be ok wif it too ya? So decided 2 do sum las min shoppin in order 2 find sumtin suitable 4 the visit on dora's hse on tues.. Really can't wait to mit alicia n the rest! Its been a long time since we caught up wif one another! :D

N I noe I promised photos a few posts ago bt I m simply too laziie 2 upload em now.. N moreover, dinner's gonna b rdy really soon.. Haha..

Shall stop here n byez! :)

Was somehow depressing 2dae wif miie effort totally inproportionate to the level of success..

Anyway, thanks to huishan who was thr for miie n all.. N I fel a lot more inspired as well.. A demoralised spirit doesn't get us anywhere far..

Here's to workin hard n not givin up! :D

Yesterdae was damn fun during co practise.. I noe we r supposed 2 b practising but we ended up foolin ard n all.. Lol! :P

Signs of us having fun can be found below.. Helped to gather the evidence n sent it to denise for it to be uploaded.. Cool! :D

N its god damn funny I swear! Lol!

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=295856339307&subj=542084307

Not 2 sure if u ppl can view it since it is uploaded on facebook n I m not too sure of her facebook account settings.. Anyways, enjoy n there are more to come.. Lol! :D

Life's been busy ttm.. Not to mention dat I jus came bak from doin another round of cip yesterdae, feeling dead beat n all at the end of it.. I initially wanted to rite this post aft a nap yesterdae but I was too tired to get up dat I jus slept the whole nite thru.. Lol! U can imagine hw tiring it was.. =.=

N better stil, I m bein bombarded wif activities nxt wk.. Thr's lyk econs test tml, n on top of it, I've got co cny performance too.. N to top it off, 3 make-up lessons from all 3 different subjects.. All nxt week.. Great.. Some1 save miie pls.. =.= T T

Cip was rather eventful but I wouldn't say it was fun.. Miie, huishan, michelle, fengquan n his fren (no idea wat's his name), went to orchard to hlp to sell those 'love badges' n gain sum cip hrs.. N so far this was the most dejecting task I had to do during cip.. =.= T T Imagine havin 2 stand under the sun for hrs n ask the same qn over n over again.. "Would u lyk to donate sir/ma'am?" N most of the time, -ve responses would b generated from em..

Either they:

1. Smile n say no..

2. Waved u awae wif their hands n not even smile..

3. Walk away from u b4 u can even ask em

4. Do not even respond at all as if u r thin air..

Tell me how rejectin it is.. =.= T T Lyk only one in 5 or 10 would stop 2 donate sum change.. Only 1 in 10 or 20 would buy the badge(sum donated $2 but dey didn't wan the badge so miie n huishan took those badges.. Haha.. =X ) Didn't expect it 2 b dat bad, wen I signed up for this event tho..

In conclusion, no offense, bt most s'poreans r really stingy misers.. Not 2 mention sum of em r really rude.. =.= T T =X

On a lighter note, however, we somehow managed to fill about half of the donation can within 3 hrs n decided to stand down early.. Went to take a break n hav sum snacks n drinks at 313 (some new mall at somerset stn I guess) b4 reporting bak to return the donation can n the badges.. Haha.. =X

Had some fun takin pictures wif michelle during the whole trip too! (From the mrt to the time where we were abt to stand down..) N she is really a camwhore.. Will upload pictures the nxt time.. Haha.. :D

Shall sign off now.. N hope I would able to pass the busy week ahead.. Toodles! :D

Real eventful wk.. Not dat miie life got anymore interesting or dat I have been thru many things the past wk.. Its jus dat I got to see the different sides of different ppl ard miie which was totally inspiring.. It is really during a crisis when you can get to see the true colors of everyone I guess.. Haha..

Anyway, I got to see the caring side of most, but sad to say, the insensitive side of a few ppl as well.. N dun get miie wrong.. I m not toking abt any particular event dat happened to miie.. Haha.. =X

Its really disappointing to hear ppl toking at their top of their heads without sparing a tot for the feelins of others n being quick to judge without understanding the whole situation clearly.. N wat was most disappointing was the actions of someone who was expected to understand the different things in life better den us..

Seriously.. Each person has his or her own limitations although he or she can be pushed to perform at his or her maximum capacity.. So as long as he or she tries her best, there isn't a need to push him or her further until he or she "breaks" or "burst" under the pressure ain't it? Shouldn't some1 who has been thru more in life noe this better den us?

N I guess I m not as calm or as gd at dealing wif many things in life as I tot I was.. I was flustered, in a panick, fretful and at a loss of wat to do, while the others around mi were taking care of the whole situation a lot better den I did.. They were calm.. I wasn't.. I didn't even noe how to hlp until I was given instructions.. =.= N I dun exactly hav the gift of the gab or a glib tongue to cool the atmosphere down either.. =.= T T

It was only until quite awhile later dat I knew wat I shud do.. N even so, I did it flusteredly and I wasn't all calm in the process of doing it.. =.=

Anyway, it was really a nerve-wrecking and inspiring event.. Shall end off abruptly here... Its alright if no1 gets the gist of wat I really wanted to say since it wasn't meant to be apparent or obvious here.. Haha.. Buaiz..~ :)