Bored. Aimless. Idle.

3 words.. 3 adjectives to describe me.. (there are probably more but the list is far too long to write in here..)

It seems like my resolve and determination as well as my drive, is totally gone.. Is it really that hard to coax myself into working harder?

Have been tryin to start working and brushing up on my weak subjects like biology and chemistry after I saw miie end of yr results.. I can't believe... Its only a week.. N I m alrdy drained.. Tired and drained.. T T

I seriously wonder how I m goin to survive this hols with this plan in myn if I continue like this..

Maybe this is jus not me.. I m jus coercing myself into doing something dat I dun really enjoy doing.. Something dat is so not me.. The same feeling you get when you feel dat you are losing yourself, but not exactly that.. What an irony..

Guess life's is jus contradicting, full of loopholes.. How ironic.. I want fruits of success, yet I m somehow not eager to work for it.. =.= I m seriously contradicting miself, the way life is, or so I think..

There muz b a way out of all these.. I guess.. I jus have to find the light somewhere along the path again.. But again, jus where is the light?